So a little bit more about me. me me me .. lol I am totally kidding, though I am sure you would like to know who the crazy bird is writing on this site and what she is all about.
I’d like to tell you I have some great knowledge and vast intelligence about a ton of things however I would be lying. I have some knowledge on some things and the knowledge I gained has been from life experiences and the lens in which I view them.
I come from a large dysfunctional family, yep I will admit it. I have two older sisters that I lived with while growing up, when my parents split at a young age and found new partners I acquired four step sisters and one brother. You know we are the generous type, why keep the dysfunction contained to just a few? Lets spread it around and share with the masses. 🙂 With mental health and addiction running so ramped within our fam, I unfortunately lost the youngest to overdose and have a couple struggling with their demons still to this day as well as some that have been in recovery for many many years . I would love to tell you that the buck stopped at me and the cycle ended. That would be a big fat NO! Drugs were never a thing for me and drinking was a take or leave for the most part. Though truthfully I did drink way to much when my boys were in prison. Ya you read that right, boys in prision….. so apparently I did not stop the cycle of dysfunction. I wasn’t an active alcoholic or drug addict I carried a lot of the dysfunctions of my family traits and apparently I am still a work in progress.
I have two children that I birthed and a few more I took on through the journey of my kids school years. I have four grandchildren, two that I am fortunate enough to see more frequently than my two beautiful girls that live in Mississippi.
I have been a Government working for the majority of my life, though as I aged, I realized that I have a soft spot for mental health and addiction. Not surprising really when you have been surrounded by it your whole life, then choose to marry into it not once but twice. Guess I really wanted to be in the thick of it. Plus I have children that have struggles so I like to learn as much as I can and offer up any knowledge or tools, hey don’t let me fool you it isn’t just for them. I need the knowledge and the tools as much as they do. The journey of dysfunction, mental health and addiction has been less than smooth. Somedays I stand back and think man really this is my life.. wtf.. 🙂 I am totally grateful for my life though it has had some challenges for sure. I have learned a ton and I am sure I will continue to do so. My experiences have led me to this. To wanting to share, to be of some assistance, to talk about shit people do not want to talk about. I can make a room go quiet in a hot minute. ( if I could put in an emoji it would be the person smacking their face) I struggled a ton with heartache and shame when my boys went to prison. Grief is such a lonely journey already, add shame to that, I just didn’t want anyone else to feel that low so I wrote a book.
Writing is a thing for me, I love it. Mind you I love lots of things, my hobbies are endless. Archery, art, chess, music playing and listening, axe throwing , golf, and soooo much more. I wish I could tell you I am brilliant at them all however I love it so to be frank I do not care if I am brilliant at it I enjoy it and that’s really all that matters. WELLLLLL except for maybe my singing that probably matters to those that have to listen to it ..lol I know I sound terrible and guess what I sing anyways.