Once in Vancouver and at the hospital we made our way to the neuro icu area, called to go see her and they told us to come back. I don’t know why i was mad about it however i was. I wanted to see her, i wanted to be close and as much as i wanted to get in they were not going to let me so reluctantly i turned and walked back down the hall towards towards the waiting room. My sister Patti and niece Jessica were on route so we went down to the lobby cafeteria to wait for them. We waited the allotted time and headed back up to the floor to see if we could see suzi. Unfortunately we still had to wait a bit more. While sitting in the little waiting room on the floor my sisters kids, ex husband and current wife arrived. We moved ourselves to the big cafeteria on the floor
As stressful as it was the waiting, i have to admit it was nice that we could all be there. it was nice that even though Suzi and the kids dad had been apart for so long that he came to support the kids and make sure suzi was ok. what was more amazing to me was that his wife joined. She was genuinely concerned for my sister and the well being of everyone. My sister not knowing it in this moment was truly blessed.
The next four days consisted of sitting with suzi though no one really knows if she knew we were there or not. I would sing to her. I sang everything under the sun however the song she seemed to show signs of anything was always remember me this way by lady gaga. My husband filmed me singing to her. at first i was so mad, it was so private and he recorded it, however, when he let me watch it i totally appreciated it. it was love, maybe that is why it was a love song ..
it was tough, she got a fever, she crashed, they had to up meds for seizures, fluid was building in her brain, her blood pressure was high, it felt like she was fighting a loosing battle. no surgery because they felt she wasn’t going to survive so no point. however four days in she decided to prove them wrong. i was sitting singing probably being annoying and her blood pressure was going high and her heart rate. i started to panic the nurse told me it was ok, so i kept going and then her eyes fluttered.. oh my god talk about excitement i started to yell at the nurse is that normal what is happening is she waking up?? is she stroking out… what’s happening? So she calmly came over and said Susan open your eyes. She did.. then closed them. She again said Susan open your eyes your sister is her….She did, the nurse says can you see your sister, she moved her eyes to find me and she did…oh my heart..then she tried to mouth hey baby girl. i have never wanted to cry with joy so much. I couldn’t believe it.. here i was waiting to my sisters time to run out and her she was looking at me, trying to say hi. what an incredible human.
This changed the game plan. The surgeon told me that they would now do surgery to stop the bleed. i still am amazed that she bleed for so many days and was still fighting. though i shouldn’t be surprised she bleed for 4 days when she had her first aneurysm before she was 30 rupture. she was in and out of consciousness and still needed the life support. She went in for surgery the day before her 57 th birthday. i told her they were doing it so she could dance at her next one.
When the surgeon called me for consent to the surgery i panicked. I had already signed off on the DNR (do not resuscitate), what if something happened during surgery when she is showing signs of survival, i cried a lot while talking with him. He reassured me that he would do all he could for her survival. That he would call me and tell me how successful it was when he was done. This lovely surgeon had done another surgery on my sister, i believe it was her third aneurysm he put coils in. This was my sister fourth aneurysm and she still has one inside her head that hasn’t done much of anything but hang out for the last 10 years. That amazing little bean went through surgery and came out the other side beautifully. Id like to say that made everything better however, this is just a start of her journey and how amazing she is.