WRITING THINGS

I know….What a title hey, however how many of us have felt like that. How many of us have hung our heads and hoped no one else would see it. Which I laugh at, because if we feel like we are a train wreck, then most likely others can see…

I woke this morning with a bit of a heavy heart. Not because today I turn 55, because at 55 there are still things I long for from my family. Acceptance, understanding and comfort of knowing I am loved. I know most people are like get over it, your an…

So as you can see from my prior stories, we got some shit. Man who am I kidding we had a lot of shit. The cycle of mental health and addiction was in full force at our place. Both of my parents had a parent that struggled with addiction of…

I do not remember a ton of my childhood. I remember bits and pcs. I remember the rage, the not good enough, the mood swings, the outburst, and did I mention the rage :(. I am sure my mother did not intend for me to feel less than, unworthy or…

I love that we are becoming more and more aware as a society. I am grateful that they have months dedicated to awareness on certain things. I love that people partake and are more aware and active in that month. For myself it isn’t just a month of awareness. For…

Goodreads Giveaw I wanted to thank all of you personally, that entered for the 100 kindle giveaway.I also wanted to congratulate the 100 kindle giveaway winners. Yaahooo 🙂 I really hope you enjoy the read. I appreciate you allMy Heart Behind Bars: A Mother’s Journey of Grief, Incarceration, Love and…

So many changes, I sometimes am not sure where it all starts and where it all ends. Some days I can wake up and think…you got this and in the very next breath I can be WTF, where do I start. lol I am not sure if this is common…

You ever wake up and think this is going to be a great day, you get ready and head to get you and your crew coffee. You look down and realize you still have your slippers on. You grab all the coffees and go drop them off, only to realize…

So yesterday I picked up my sister from the hospital and brought her home, to her home, not mine. It has been a very interesting journey one that we are still trucking along on. Suzi was fed up with being in the hospital. I honestly can not say i blame…

The day after my sisters surgery she turned 57, I silently wished her a happy birthday. I was in Nanaimo and she was in Vancouver in neuro ICU. It had been 5 days since her aneurysm and we had moved from futile no surgery to dang i guess we best…

Once in Vancouver and at the hospital we made our way to the neuro icu area, called to go see her and they told us to come back. I don’t know why i was mad about it however i was. I wanted to see her, i wanted to be close…

I left off with my parents holding hands walking in to say good bye to their daughter, unknowing for how long. A helicopter ride, a ferry ride, a moment or forever. There is something about seeing your parents older, heartbroken and capable of loving each other through it. I felt…

I have a sister, obviously by the title her name is Suzi. Though if you were to meet her you would address her as Sue, if you didn’t know her and you were meeting her professionally you would call her Susan. My reason for this post was I am suppose…

I have been avoiding writing on here, mostly because I feel like I ought to be finishing up the last bit of the book instead of putting thoughts down that the majority of the time I don’t post. I can not tell you how many unposted write ups I have….

I woke this morning with you in my thoughts, nothing new there. I sat for a moment and thought about the sting in my heart, the sadness in which it carried. I thought about the things i would do if you were with us today, if i was able to…

I have had much time to sit and reflect over the last few weeks as many of us have had.  I don’t need to be self isolating or quarantined to sit back and think about things, reflect on my life, my behaviours, my journey.  I have always been a self…

So it has been a long while since I have posted anything on here. I had these great intentions that I was going to practice writing on here, get things out, talk about the things that no one really wants to talk about, well that seems to have been an…

Time flies, doesn’t it though, specially when your having fun or caught up in chaos.  According to some, my life seems to run a little more on the chaos side of things then the fun.  I am not sure I agree 100% however perception is something I have no control…

That’s pretty much how I have been feeling the last few days, ready…set….go! I signed up for an achievement boot camp and I tell ya the motivation I got from following some of the outline was amazing.  The first thing I did with this boot camp was public state what…

I don’t know about any of you however i can only speak for myself.  I am one of those people who likes to call a spade a spade, shoot from the hip and a straight shooter as they say.  I am always more than willing to help someone out and…

well its still pretty early in the am and i am doing my best to be quiet to not wake up my husband and the dog…i got up at 415 with my daughter like i do most mornings, so we can have a coffee and chat before she heads off…

Setting goals, following through, what does it take? determination? drive? emotion? condition?  I mean honestly we all know how to set the goals, its the following through that seems to be a challenge for the most part.  Sometimes we start of strong, we know what we want so we start…